sickly boy.

Always a family, and never a broken one. just a little "rearranged". :]

spent the last 2 days as a family.

its nice to feel this connection of individuals that have come together as a family.

no animosity, maybe a little confusion and frustration, but bound by love and happiness.

my biological father had actually at one point said "you shouldnt hang out as a family, it'll only confuse him". i call b.s. bio dad. maybe that mentality works for you. but our son will always know us as a dual unit. a pair. a couple of parents. who love him. and love each other.

J took off from work today because we were really worried about j.

(you can read here why we have some slight warranted but maybe irrational paranoia when he is sickly: http://dear-julian.blogspot.com/2010/04/sweet-sweet-boy.html)

we were up til 6 am with him. and then up again at 9.

its been a rough day, but hopefully the liquid steroids the doc gave helped him to feel a bit better. its 140am right now over here, and j is still awake and cranky. but its about time for sleepy cuddles and maybe a decent nights rest.

things have been odd, almost as if we are really at peace with how we are as two seperate parents. thats okay, and i like that we can still say we love each other and commend the parenting we do.

our conversation went like this.

J came up and hugged me from behind for a moment and said "you're a good mother." i responded back "youre a good daddy." and then he says "we are great parents".

i think thats the sweetest conversation we have had in awhile.

and thats all that needs to be said.

what a great feeling.