for weeks before the move i had nightmares of me coming home and suddenly being aware julian was gone and wouldnt be with me. because of plans, and traveling to see him on my off days...i hadnt had this come to fruition. until today.
i cancelled my plans and was in a mood. i felt off.
and just like in the dream, i sat on my couch and became suddenly aware of the silence and the discomfort.
i miss my son.
i know he is with daddy and happy. but i miss him. this is so lame.
i just want him here all the time!
i have to convince myself right now he isnt broken.
he has all the love and dedication of two parent households on any given day.
but i should be there.
i should be there.
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