why do the doors creak during naptime?

went to check on j. and he is sleeping. FINALLY. though the darned doors might have woken him if he werent so tired. took 30 minutes trying to get him to sleep in his toddler bed only to find he kept getting up to play, then 30 more minutes trying the "big bed" which is mine.

i even had to lay with him for a bit because he was playig around so much he fell off.

this is an adjustmet for sure.

last night we went to rescue Judes Paternal grandmother and aunt who were stranded.

we returned them home and i took jude across town to see his daddy while we were there. and we stayed the night.

no no, moms, nothing happened.

we talked and spent time with Julian, and i realized exactly how blessed i am.

despite the fact i want to punch him, i truly have the greatest love and respect for Julians dad, and am proud he is his father.

he is a perfect father. for our son.

and i hope that we can keep up this dynamic as friends.

(but i wont preted it doesnt drive me crazy that our relationship has changed to this. sometimes i wish we could just be in love again and God would fix our relationship. but i no longer crave that. i just know it would be easier on julian...or would it? unrelated note....i have an interesting "putting myself back out there" story to tell later. when i lose the rest of my shame :])